Week 4 - Food Obsession

Wow, it's the start of week 4 already!

It's also the start of a new year for me, as today I'm 34. When I think about it, I've been concerned about my weight for nearly half of my life. Today is no different, as I struggle with the dilemma that arrives on every birthday - to eat cake, or not to eat cake? To indulge, or act like it's just another day? That's the problem with having a birthday in January (always a big diet month), and being a complete foodie. Food is how I've always celebrated the high points in life, and how I've consoled myself in low moments. I know that I've got to change this relationship.

It's funny to consider that I have a relationship with food, but there's no denying that I do. In fact, it's the one  relationship I need to fix - and since my human relationships are healthy and happy, why not work on this one?

I'm tackling this situation much like I'd tackle an unhealthy human relationship: separate, contemplate, replace/renew.  First, I’m going to focus on separation: stop connecting food to emotions. Because I’ve always celebrated and commiserated with food, this will be the toughest task. I find happiness/excitement in going out to dinner; I find comfort in a warm bowl of mac n’ cheese on a bad day. When my fiance lived out of state, my band-aid for loneliness/sadness took the form of potato chips or chocolate cake. And, because I was often bored and lonely, I would fill the time with researching new recipes or indulging in favorite ones. 

These past few days, I’ve had to really separate myself from food. Otherwise, the single day of my birthday could snowball into 4, 5, 6 days of overindulgence under the “celebratory umbrella.” It’s been hard - really hard. Especially when things that seem normal, like eating a piece of birthday cake, end up compromising the day’s points. It’s why I’m thankful for the WW tracking system, as I was able to see that eating an entire piece of cake wasn’t an option today...but that eating a few bites AND enjoying the company of my coworkers could be enough of a celebration. 

A last thing - my birthday present to myself was a digital scale, which, awesomely, arrived in the mail today! I’m excited to have a much more reliable version of a tool that will useful on my path to permanent weight loss.

It's going to be a great week!


2012 Resolution: Week 1

So, this first week of my resolution has been interesting.

It started with two days of a detox/cleanse, a.k.a. two days of hell/horror. Okay, it really wasn't that bad :) I thought it would be a good plan to trick myself into my 1200 calorie diet by detoxing right before. The idea behind this is that I'd be so sick of eating virtually nothing that I'd be EXCITED about 1200 calories. Guess what? It worked. By the end of detox day two (after 48 hours of nothing but mostly quinoa and vegetables), I was over the moon at the prospect of Wednesday's 1200 calorie menu. Coffee! Apples! Soup! Happiness all around.

The next four days were mostly painless. There was a slight low blood sugar issue on Wednesday, quickly solved when I realized I hadn't eaten any protein, but otherwise everything went well. The hardest part about this diet so far is not eating after 7 p.m. I find myself rushing to get dinner made by then, and if I'm still awake at 9, my mouth thinks it wants something sweet. So instead, I drink tea...and last night, I tried chewing gum. That worked well - my mouth was busy engaging with a delicious piece of Trident Layers Cherry-Lime. Perfect solution.

There have been a few nice surprises this week, too. First, I've discovered a really cool cookbook by Rocco DiSpirito. It's filled with all kinds of delicious recipes, all with low calorie counts - and, hooray - WeightWatchers point totals, too! Makes things much easier.

Ellie's Balsamic Chicken
Chicken Enchiladas
Another surprise was the high success rate of the two dinners I prepared for Morgan. They were scrumptious - and both under 350 calories and 8 WW points each. And while Morgan is almost always a good sport about diet food, it's a real bonus if he actually likes the meal and offers to eat it again. Click on these links to get to these recipes: Ellie Krieger's Balsamic Chicken + Spinach and Chicken Enchiladas with Salsa Verde.

One final surprise - I lost four pounds this week! This is a quick drop, but it's not surprising; I think the detox probably had something to do with it. Regardless, losing is winning!

Looking forward to the upcoming week, as it marks the beginning of my exercise plan. I think this will be more of a challenge than the dieting...mostly because I don't love working out. We'll see how it goes!


Get Fit Bride - 2012 Resolution

A few years ago, I heard a statistic about weight loss – something about how 92 percent of people who lose weight regain it within a year. Seriously, 92 percent??!?! Why even try then, right?

Yet, as a new year dawns once again, here I am on the weight loss hamster wheel. This has been a pattern in my life for the past seven-ish years: Jan – July = super motivated to lose weight (and usually do), Aug – Nov = get distracted/busy/tired and ultimately careen into the horrific downhill slide of December.  Ah, December. It begins with the “Hey, what will a few cookies/eggnog lattes/etc. hurt?” and ends with “#%#*&, what have I done to myself!?!?!”  Today, I think I spotted an extra five pounds around my waist alone…courtesy of the 8,000 Turtle Bars I ate last week in AZ.

My 2012 resolution to lose weight may be the same, but the motivation behind it is much more intense. In addition to wanting to be the healthiest version of myself, I also have an awesome near-future goal: look great at my wedding. In the next three months, I’m going to commit myself to 1) consuming 1200 calories a day, and 2) working out seven days a week. Ideally, I’d like to lose 30 pounds before my wedding day in June, and hope that 25 of those pounds are shed before my March 29th dress fitting.

This is a BIG goal, but I’ve got a couple weapons. WeightWatchers, for one. This has been the only “diet” to date that has actually worked for me to some degree. I love the flexibility of WW, mostly because I don’t feel deprived. A second weapon is Jillian Michaels. Her workout DVDs are quick and painful – this is good for a working girl. In the past, being diligent with Jillian has rendered noticeable muscle definition. That said, I’ve never truly attempted her 30-Day Shred in 30 days, and I’m excited to see what the results will be.

A forever list-maker, I think it’s always good to write important things down. So, here are my specific goals for this FitBride 2012 resolution:
Resolution:      Lose 30 pounds by June 1st

Sub goals:       1) Eat a diet of 1200 calories a day
                                    a) Avoid processed foods
                                    b) No eating after 7 p.m.
                                    c) Enter all food into WeightWatchers log
                                    d) Drink at least 80 oz. water each day
                        2) Work out every single day
                                    a) Jillian/5-6 days
                                    b) Walking/1-2 days
                                    c) Key focus areas: arms and tummy

Mantra:            “Can I do this today? Just today?”